When your a child, you spend so much time waiting to grow up. When your an adult, you spend all your time wishing you were a kid again.
Isn't it funny how much assuming we do in life? How much time we spend wanting something we really know nothing about? You know, it's that whole...the grass is always greener on the other side thing. We think if we have money, we will have no bill problems. That if we have love, we can conquer anything. Well I am here to tell you that money causes problems and that love will only get you so far. What we really need in life is a nice balance of everything. We need love to sustain our hearts and money to keep us safe. To much of either tends to make your picture a little blurry, if you ask me anyway.
Why does it take us so much time, so much of our precious lives, to realize that we have to simply the way we look at things in order to feel at peace? Why must we fall straight on our face and lose everything before we understand that we were doing it wrong to begin with? I believe it is simply that we always think we need more, need to have better. And what does more get us?
It took me a long, very long time, to get where I am today. To look at things the way that I do and to know the things that I do. However, I still can't seem to keep my positive thoughts above my negative thoughts. I am an extremely open minded person, I know this world is gray. I know that nothing is one side or the other. That things are never as they seem and nothing works out as we expect it to.
So, I have decided to "Simplify"
I have decided to slow down, to look deeper and follow my instincts. To let go of all the complicated things around me. To let go of the people I try so hard to keep in my life and to give my attention to those that are trying to have me in theirs. To be the best mother and wife I can be, and let my life lead me as it should. Laugh more than I cry, cuddle more than I think. We are making breakfast more than we are eating cereal and enjoying more baked goodies than cheese sticks and yogurt. I walked away from Facebook and into conversations with the people IN my life.
And you know what.....I FEEL BETTER
I no longer feel like something is missing. That someone is ignoring me or doesn't want me around anymore. I no longer feel like the people close to me are just coming and going. I feel like cuddling up to my husband on the couch way more than I used to. Like baking cookies, just to see the smiles on my children's faces. And I'll be damned if I don't feel lucky as hell.
Now....If only we could pay the bills.
Told ya.
