What lap?

Don't mind the bare legs peeps...If you know me you know that I do love a comfy short in the house!! However, in case you missed that giant basket ball in my lap...Let me explain the growth.

Yep..That is what I am literally trying to sew with, type with, cook with and carry kids around with...No, its not hard at all..I am super woman of course!! Balance is not nessecary for these tasks, just things to lean on should you start to fall over.

I really shudder at the thought of what I will look like 5 weeks from now when this baby makes its great escape from my uterus...Off to try to finish up sewing...Super fun with the basketball between the sewing machine and myself..

Wish me luck!

My how things change

I can't get over how things change so easily. Things you are sure will stay the same forever. I know that people in your life, things you are doing in life and things you want to accomplish in life all seem to change at any given time. I find that at the end of each year I am wondering where people went and why? What changed and who did it?

I know I will never have the answers to these questions as things just go on as they must. So I guess its a good thing that for the most part I am okay with change.

Resume holiday festivities and I will turn off my brain until next year.

Nothing but snow baby!

I so love the snow...I mean I really like it. Don't get me wrong, come Feburary I am tired of it like everyone else, but I do enjoy it for the most part.

I love watching it, driving in it and I especially love cooking in it. I don't mean IN IT exactly, but you get the point I am sure. I get the urge to make up new recipes and try new things so much when the snow starts falling. Take today..I knew it was going to snow..I had been waiting for it. I seemed like the perfect day to find a good ham and beans recipe for the crockpot and let it brew all day.

My house smells amazing. Between the cranberry bread smell coming from my scentsy jar and the ham and beans in the crockpot..Everyone should want to come over here.

Stay at home WHAT??

Me and my husband have this wonderful fight...You know that one the you always come back to? The one the gets thrown in the mix even when it has NOTHING to do with what you are actually talking about..Thats the one.

He says that I am a stay at home mom so I need to do things around the house..I say yes, I am a stay at home mom...Not a stay at home housecleaner. What do you say should my version include then? I shall explain.

Lets use today for an example. Get up and get myself presentable. Dress children, do both girls hair, feed both children and brush their teeth. Out the door at 8:50 to have Rainee to school on time. Run errands, pick Rainee up from school at 11:50. Run a few more errands and get home. Feed the girls lunch and get them down for quiet time and nap time. Finally sit down for the first time!

Did I mention I am roughly a million weeks pregnant with a child the size of a beach ball? Oh I didn't? I apologize, of course that should have nothing to do with what I get done around the house during the day, right?

Resume day...Clean kitchen, make cheeseball and get ready for monthly book club. Drive to Draper to enjoy WONDERFUL woman time and arrive at home around 10:30 at night.

My point is this..As far as I am concerned, I am a stay at home MOM. I take care of my children. I keep them from killing each other and I make sure they are happy and healthy. If I don't get things cleaned up or anything done for the matter its just fine. Its not my fault that I refuse to participate in something that was not listed in the job description...

Next time...I would be more specific.

Pictures...

My girls are getting so big...I really can't quite wrap my mind around it. Rylee will be 2 years old in about 3 weeks and Rainee is 4 years old and knee deep in preschool 5 days a week. I realized as I was looking at a friends profile on myspace today that I don't think I take enough pictures. So here is a shining post dedicated to my girls and all their beautifulness!

Sporting the Christmas Pjs mommy maid last year..



Stealing snacks with Alice at Levis Birthday party..



Rainee swinging for the first time long ago..



Rylee swinging for the first time last fall..



Are they not the most beautiful girls you have ever seen? I can't believe how much alike they look, but at the same time how much different they are from each other. I am so proud to be their mommy and I would not change it for anything in this world.

I love you girls

Fear..

Its amazing how much you have to fear for and from when you are a mother. Just hearing something on the news or something that happened to someone you know can personally keep me up at night or cause me bad dreams. I am like any other person. I want no harm to ever come to my children, but I know we all can only do our best as parents.

A girl that I was aquainted with through my Moms Group was in a very bad accident over the weekend by the Utah border when the big storm hit. She was very badly injured and remains in serious condition in the hospital, but her babies are just fine. I will not go into the details as it makes me very anxious to even thing about it, but I can say I believe what happened during that accident to be what every parent would want in that situation.

I know that if I was in a situation or accident and I knew it was going to be bad, I would pray as hard and as fast as I could that I would take all the pain and hurt and my children would be unharmed as much as possible.

Yet another example that parenting is damn hard work, but SO worth it.

23 weeks...

Growing is not even the correct word for what I am these days...I am round and definately showin it.

I guess we will see how I end up...