Whats in a friend?

Friendship means many things to many people, but to me it means being a friend.

When I am your friend, I am your friend for life. I jump in with both feet and don't look back. Its all or nothing and honey I am in ALL THE WAY. If you feel like our friendship is not strong anymore, maybe its because we have grown apart. But I will always be your friend.

Life changes. Things get harder and easier to different degrees and angles. We keep those around us that make us feel secure and strong in what we are trying to achieve at that time. I can always be what you need me to be. I can do that because I am your friend and friendship is serious business to me.

Do you need a cheerleader?

Maybe you need a conscience?

Would you like a shoulder to cry on?

Or maybe, just maybe you want to give me what I want to give to you.

That is the kind of friends I need. I choose to be in the presence of people that bring out the best in me. People that support the way I choose to live and the things I hold dear to my heart. I truly can't take ANYMORE negativity in my life. If I don't bring it to your life, please don't put it in mine.

My life is full of love and strength. I share that with the people I care about and if we are friends I care about you. You matter to me and I will ALWAYS be here for you.

Beauty

It is truly sad the way the world looks at beauty.

Why must everything be about the way we fit in clothes or color our face? Is it to much to focus on the way we make each other feel or how we feel inside?

I have always been a bigger girl. I am not a little girl trapped in a bigger body or a chubby girl. I am a Rachel. I am the mother to three beautiful children that know your face and heart are what make you beautiful. I am the wife of a man who thinks I am sexy and strong. I am the friend of several beautiful women who I feel constantly bring themselves down to a level that they believe they are at.

As we grow and change through life our body changes. Our minds evolve and our hearts swell. I see women putting themselves down because they are not who they thought they would be or the size that they "should be".

It amazes me everyday what a journey life is, the ups and downs alone can be draining. The most important thing should be doing what we can to be happy in life. Not to be skinny, or to achieve all that we had set in our minds when started the journey.

Just enjoy the ride.

Day 2: The proof

I saw her today. She looks so different. She is the same, but completely different all at the same time. Who knew that some love and attention could make your cheeks be fuller and you skin rosier.

I want for her to heal so badly. To feel like she is worth it and to see that she is amazing. She is so strong. So smart and just so freaking amazing. I see so much when I look at her.

In just 10 days she has grown. That means everything to me.

Is this thing on?

What? You want to know where the hell I have been for the last three months? OY VAY!

I can tell you that I have rarely sat still in the last year. With three kids, two arms and a hell of a busy schedule I can't believe Christmas is a week from today and that my little boy will be 1 in a little over a month. Where did the year ago? How on earth is my last baby almost 1??

To say I am freaking out on that one would be a complete and total lie. I am so torn between feeling excited about how life is going to change and being so very sad that I will never nurse another brand new baby. Sappy much? *insert tissue here*

Being a mother is one of the most amazing things I will ever do in my life. Its a non stop, stressful, and completely enjoyable job to have. I love seeing my children grow and enjoy things. Watching their minds work and explore is absolutely amazing.

With Christmas just around the corner, I am reminded of the special people in my life that bring me such joy and how lucky I am to be me. I have an amazing husband, I loving and supportive best friend and the *family* I choose to have.

Its eye opening to realize that just because someone is realated to you does not make them good for you, and that just because someone has always been there, doesn't mean they will be there forever. So for now, I am living in the moment. The crazy moment that is my incredibly blessed life and I know I am right where I should be.

Unexpected

I love change.

I love new things and new experiences.

I love things out of the ordinary and things that are completely unexpected.

Things like amazing people and intellegent conversation.

What concerns me is why I am so impressed by easy going, fun to be around people. Shouldn't this be the norm? Why are there so many more negative unhappy people in our lives than the people that make us smile and breathe easy?

It simply amazes me how easily I can be made happy and comfortable by having the right kind of people in my life.

I hope this becomes my NORM.

My life through Miley Cyrus eyes

I first heard this song on American Idol a week or two ago, I of course can't remember for sure since I have three kids and no memory at all. It seemed like such a powerful song, such an important message to share. It was not until last night that I got a chance to listen to it again and really pay attention to the words. I was reading a blog by Johnathon Jay, you can check him out here.

http://jonnandkate.blogspot.com/2009/04/musical-monday.html

A young man fighting against cancer with the most incredible outlook I have ever seen. He is choosing to LIVESTRONG and that is nothing short of amazing to me.



The song really speaks to me on so many levels, it really is all about how you get there.

Running on way to little patience

I woke up this morning with about 95% of my patience missing. This is not going to be a pleasant day. I have been snapping and yelling. All this before 10 in the morning, dear lord keep the casualties to a minimum.

Rylee is in full blown whine mode, not actually talking or crying. Right in the middle with whinning. OMG. She is hanging on me and pulling apart the last 5% I have in me. I don't want to yell, I don't want to scream. I want to be the calm and collected parent.

Does anymore know where I can order more patience online for cheap??

Are you freaking kidding me???

You did what with the leftover Subway sandwich I was eating that was on the counter? Are you serious? You threw the only thing that sounded good for lunch in the garbage??!

Have you any idea how bad of a husband this makes you right now? No it was not with the two things on the counter that would not fit in the garbage to be thrown out!! How could you think the OPENED wrapper with a sandwich in it that had a bite taken out of it was to go in the garbage?

Yes I am crying because you threw out my lunch! I wanted that sandwich and I have not slept throw the night in months...Damn it man..YOU OWE ME!!